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I hate the fact that I keep using blogspot as a way to vent out what I feel, but then again, I love how I can say almost everything I need to somewhere. (Yeah, I do have friends whom I can vent to also. -_- I do tell them things, but I feel like I can get my message out to those I should be telling straight up; if they read this and get the idea it's for them, at least). Oh, well. Maybe I'll get over this stage. I have before, but that's only when they forced me to reach my worse. I don't want to reach that point again, where I'll either act like the biggest b*tch you'll meet, or the 'emo-est' kid ever. I'm really a happy person, don't get me wrong. Sometimes, even too happy. It takes alot for me to feel weak. If you hit my weak spot once, I'll get over it. I've been through a bunch of crap from people (or person), that I don't even feel a need to cry over anything. No, I'm not trying to act like I'll be the toughest person you'll meet. (Duh, I just admitted that I have a weak spot). However, it's unfortunate that lately, my weak spot has been getting hit hard and constantly. I'm at the point where I feel that it's difficult for me to keep trying to stand strong. (Ew, wtf did I just say)? No, this isn't me trying to be 'emo' and all that crap which people describe someone as when they feel upset over something. Again, like I said, I use blogspot to try and get my message across to whoever would read this. It sucks, I get scared to say things straight up because I know I'd get intense with trying to defend my point, and I'll come out looking like a mean person or a selfish b*tch. I'm really a nice person, unless you do something wrong against my friends, family, or take super advantage of my being nice. Eh, anyway. I just don't want to feel this way anymore. What's worse is that the weather is getting alot more hotter, (oops, excuse my grammatic error) and the heat gets me easily more ticked off with things. Oh, well. All I can do is hope that my weak spot stops getting hit hard, or overcome this. Then again, I'm getting tired of always having to be that person that has to overcome the problems. Maybe, just once, I'd like people to realize I can't keep handling all this BS. Please everyone, and I mean this in the kindest way possible, don't/stop take[ing] me as someone who will always get over things because you know that I care too much. I'm only human, and I hurt too. By the way, if anyone did put time to reading this, thank you for caring about what I had to say; however, please don't question me about this anymore. Thank you.

ANYWAY. Lovely day, isn't it?